The Sacred Unfolding

Hello loves!

I have been struggling with what to share in this first newsletter. It’s crazy to think how long I have been working on it. I started the first draft maybe five months ago and kept writing and rewriting, but none of it felt ready. I was in this create and destroy mode for such a long time. So much has changed since then. My latest thought was to get this out by the new moon and yet, that didn’t feel right for me either. The Winter Solstice is today and I felt it, deep in my bones, that this is the day to send out this newsletter. My love letter to you as I navigate my own unfolding of growth, change, and healing.

The Moon of Your Heart is something that I have been wanting and needing to create for such a long time. It was gestating for years and was birthed into the world in May. What was once a sprout, is now a flower blooming in the night with sparkles, joy and love. Ready to be seen and shared with the world.

Do you ever reflect back on a pivotal moment in your life and realize how far you’ve come? I write to reflect, but I don’t usually go back and read it. I do pay attention though, when certain themes show up–those gentle nudges from the Universe that tell me to pay attention. The Star card keeps showing up everywhere. I laugh as I write this because she showed up for me a year ago and I realized today that she’s come full circle and so have I.

I was laid off last November and even though it surprised me, I was excited. I was so tired of the corporate world–tired of feeling contained and small. I was also afraid. My world had changed suddenly on a Wednesday afternoon and I didn’t know what was next.

I had a daily practice of pulling tarot cards–a ritual that grounded me at the start of my day. After the layoff, I felt even more supported by the cards as I navigated this liminal space. The Star card showed up over and over again. She had become this familiar face I’d seen in my dreams and then there she was, looking at me in real time. I understood why she was showing up. My life, everything around me, my foundation, had come crumbling down. It was time to heal.

Fast forward to this month. The Star keeps showing up again and again, but this time, she’s not showing up in a daily pull. She’s everywhere in the world around me. I write about my life and where I’ve been and I see her. This crisp image of a naked figure, one foot on water, one foot on land, pouring life back into the earth beneath the stars.

I’m at a poetry reading, listening, eyes closed, taking in all the words and I hear, “what wound is on repeat?” followed by “a naked dip in living water” and I’d see her again. She was on repeat in my brain. 

Over and over again, I see her, hear her, and then realize that I am her. I’ve come full circle in the last year, from that tower moment, when the lighting struck to starting all over again, rebuilding a new foundation, being mindful of what I was building for myself. I went through a massive shedding, releasing what no longer served me, choosing myself and coming into alignment with all the parts of me. It was a healing journey that started from the inside out. I sat with where I was at, validated my feelings, and chose what I wanted to do next. I listened to my intuition, stayed open to anything that dropped in that asked for my attention.

I was so gentle with myself this past year. I nourished my body and listened. When I was tired, I’d sleep. When I was hungry, I’d eat. When I needed to cry, I’d cry. I went through an entire cycle of feelings - anger, sadness, fear, happiness, and everything in between. I’d be washing dishes, jamming to DJ Ferry Corsten, when suddenly tears would well up in my eyes and loud sobs would break through. I had no idea where these feelings were coming from or why they were bubbling up. I stayed with them though, didn’t push them down, and ran with them even though I felt ridiculous at times. The big purge, the letting go. I was making space. Getting empty to get full.

Friends would ask how I was doing and I was so honest. I’d share that I cried, I had a whirlwind of feelings stirring around inside me that I made space for, all the while being so grateful that I get to experience all of these feelings. What a gift to be in a human body that feels so much! Every time I’d feel better after that release, I’d crank my music up, shake my hips, dance, be silly, all while laughing and celebrating myself, the letting go, the lightness in my body, the cinder blocks that were once strapped to my feet were starting to shrink.

I’d feel a contraction, then an expansion, and then I was shining bright, like The Star herself. That was me, too. The ebbs and flow, the cycles of change, and then I realized that I am in alignment with myself more than ever. I’ve been alchemizing my inner and outer worlds consistently and now I am living in my truth.

I’m showing up fully and authentically, honoring my boundaries, valuing reciprocity and presence, staying tender and open without self-abandonment, and holding my light, even when others don’t reflect it back. I’m not negotiating with myself to make others comfortable. I act, respond, and feel into alignment with what’s real for me. I radiate my truth, anchored in myself.

Healing is an ongoing part of my journey on this earth. I’ve met so many people this year that are in their own phase of healing. Sharing what they’re going through, the muck that they’re sitting in, and how they’re tender and vulnerable. Holding space for them as they navigate their own liminal space has been such a gift.

Reflecting back how far they’ve come on their journey is also something I share with them. I know that when we’re “in it” it’s really hard to see where we started. Reminding people of where they are now compared to where they were is so important. The growth and the expansion that they’re feeling is real. Walking alongside them as they navigate their threshold journey is magic and seeing them light up as they discover their own truth is a sacred unfolding that I truly love to witness.

This is the work I do.
This is what The Moon of Your Heart holds space for.

With love, on this longest night,
Naomi

The Moon of Your Heart
https://www.themoonofyourheart.com/